marriage

I don't want to compete with you
I just want to build with you
I don't want to stand behind you
Can't I just walk next to you?

We're reflections of each other see
I look @ you I just see me
Together we can change the world
but you must make me your only girl

I'll treat you like the king you are
bring you the sun moon & the stars
I want your strength, respect, and love
As is below, the same above

When this are hard you lean on me
I got your back, just trust in me
Give me your heart you will find joy
I'll give you a girl and a boy

A love like this inspires life
I need you to make me your wife
We'll make a home that's safe and warm
and find comfort in each other's arms

when life is tough to you I come
with your love i'll overcome
what challenges may come to me
you make me feel divine and free

we'll laugh, love, play and live life
true meaning of husband and wife
i love you to the end of time
i and praise the day you became mine

Dating Amnesia

I think I have forgotten how to date. Really, its been so long I'm worried I might not remember what to do or how to act. I swear there is another side to me that's not all work, but its been so long since she came out to play I fear she may be lost. I want to remember how to let my hair down and just be...

I don't feel like its my fault, its not like I haven't wanted to go out over the past few months/years, but I just haven't met anyone I want to go out with. I get plenty of offers, from all sorts of characters. Characters is the operative word here.

If somehow I could convince myself that a sloppily dressed, fuzzy-haired, wanna be gangsta, or generally dirty looking man was somehow desirable I could go out all the time. They love to pull up next to me in my cute little jeep and ask me for my number. I was at the mall last weekend and a good number, hissed, hooted, and beckoned for me to come over. I am wondering what happened to the concept of a man coming over to ask you "Excuse me miss, what's your name?" When did it become the expectation for me to scamper over to you b/c you look at me and make a PSST sound?

I know I am not crazy, and I'm good with my attitude "weeding out the assholes" but can they all really be asses? So I have an opportunity to test my skills and I'm off to a different environment, hopefully to meet new people and be in a place where there are people with ambition, intelligence, respect for women, and a appreciation of a superstar like myself. I just have to be honest and say I am little scared.

I may have forgotten how to be a good date? I guess we'll see.